Getting Antsy...

My temp went up again this morning (8dpo) and around now it usually starts to drop a tiny bit with a more aggressive drop in the next couple days... The last couple times I've temped my heart has been in my throat thinking that my temp was going to have gone down... I'm just waiting for it to happen. If they stay up, though, I'll be testing in 2 days.

Also, this is the least erratic chart I've seen in the last few months since I started the clomid. I hope it's a good sign. I don't want to have to do the HSG and more fertility meds and god knows whatever other treatments they'll throw at me... Of course I will, and I'll do it with a smile on my face... But almost 20 months of longing for a baby is starting to take it's toll on my psychie. I know other people have and currently are going through longer fertility treatments than me, and my heart goes out to them big time. I don't know how much more disappointment I can take.

Fighting the urge...

To POAS that is. I'll be 7dpo tomorrow, and I know that, like, 90% of the time that's way too early to even get a positive if I were pregnant. But something about 7dpo just kicks my POAS addiction into hyperdrive and I become manic obsessive about it. lol. Oi vey. I'm going to try and hold out until 10dpo... or at least 9dpo....Key word being "try." I hate to waste a test when I know it's going to be negative, but there is always this little nagging voice in the back of my head saying, "But it only costs $1.25..." I really hope this is our month. We're halfway through the 6 months that we can use the clomid, and I'm terrified that we're not going to get pregnant before I have to take a break. I know I just have to think positive, but at this point it's hard. Oh well, wish us luck!

Crosshairs!

Fertility friend gave me my crosshairs! Yay! I don't think I've ever had my temp go up this high. I know it's way too early to have "symptoms" but hopefully it's a good sign of a nice, strong ovulation.

Onto the waiting game...

Well, I'm pretty sure I ovulated... Or I'm getting sick. I had a pretty significant temp spike this morning. Of course I ovulate the day that we skipped sex. But we did do the deed the two days before ovualtion, and I woke my husband up this morning after temping to get some more spermies up there for good measure. lol. Here's hoping it was enough! I was getting worried that I wouldn't ovulate or something, or I'd ovulate REALLY late and end up not being able to get my HSG next month because I'd be out in Calgary. At least this way if I don't get pregnant then I'll be able to take that next step.

On another note, I'm getting really depressed seeing people who started trying for a baby AFTER I did (or even not trying) get pregnant, going through their pregnancy, and give birth... All before I even get anywhere close to having a BFP. I mean, I'm happy for them and everything, but every time it happens my heart breaks a little more.

Long time, no type...

Well, I've neglected to update for the last couple of months. I've been too busy with mine and my husbands wedding preparations, a family emergency, and a little jealouy at the recent BFP's I've been hearing about lately. I'm still not pregnant, I'm on round 3 of Clomid, and I should be ovulating at any moment. Fingers crossed that we catch a bean that sticks this month, but if not then my OB is sending me for a HSG to make sure that my tubes are not blocked, and also because it apparently increases your odds of concieving. So, wish me luck!