First day of the rest of our TTC adventure...

Today I took the first Provera pill. I guess now it's back to the waiting...

It's Monday!

Still no AF, so I will be calling my Doctor today to get a prescription for Provera. I hope it doesn't take forever to kick in... I wonder if it will work faster since I'm already spotting?! I hope so. Hopefully this time next week I'll be starting my Clomid... fingers crossed!

Waiting...

It's Friday night... Or, rather, Saturday morning. Still spotting, but still no full blown AF. It's looking like I'm going to have to get the Provera on Monday. I hope it doesn't take too long to kick in, but either way it's looking like July is going to be our first real month of trying. :)

Clomid Club!

Well, I'm officially joining the Clomid Club! He started me on the medium dose (100mg) instead of the low dose (50mg) for some reason, but I'm not complaining. I'm also going to continue to take the Metformin throughout everything. He said that my hormones were "excellent" and that my uterine lining was "100% better" and that it was back to normal thickness. I was very happy to hear that because the fact that I had a "very thick" uterine lining is one of the things that was stressing me out most the last little while. I have been spotting for the last 5 days so he wants to wait until Monday to see if AF shows up, and if not he will call in a Provera prescription for me to get the b*tch jump-started. Then I'll take the Clomid from CD 5-9 and go back in a month after I take it and go from there... All in all I'm happy with this course of action for now. I kind of wish I was taking the Clomid from CD 3-7 because I've read a lot of people have had success using it on those days, but I doubt 2 days is going to make a whole heap of difference. Hopefully in 3 or 4 weeks I'll finally ovulate, and maybe even (fingers crossed but not holding my breath) get a sticky bean?!?! :) Here is hoping. 

Ugh...

It's the day of my appointment, and my daughter decided that 4:00am would be a great time to wake up. It's now 6:00am, and my appointment isn't until 2:40pm. It's going to be a long day.

Tomorrow!!

My appointment is tomorrow! I am excited and nervous. I haven't been thinking much about my uterine lining, but today it has been stuck in my head. So I did a Google search. Apparently thick uterine lining can make it difficult for a bean to implant, and if it does implant then it can cause issues with carrying to term. :( So now I'm kind of worried. Anything over 15mm is a problem, and I was told that mine was "VERY thick" so I'm almost 100% positive that it's over 15mm. I'm worried... I'm worried that we are going to have to do a bunch more tests to figure out the why and how, and it's going to take a long time. I'm worried that I wont be able to get a bean to stick, and I'm worried that if I do get a bean to stick that the thick lining is going to cause a miscarriage or something. The only bright side in all of this is that Clomid is know to cause thinning of the uterine lining, so perhaps this will be a non-issue... Fingers crossed. I'm also looking into Red Raspberry Leaf tea. It's a uterine tonic, so I'm hoping it might help.

I guess I'll find out more tomorrow.

Two Days!

Longest. Days. Ever.

Thee More Days!

I'm getting antsy! :)

Random...

Today we took my daughter to our Family Doctor for a check up and mid-appointment she looks at me and says, "I had a dream that you were pregnant. I half expected you to tell me that you were when I walked in the door." So I was just kind of like, "Uhm, no. Not to my knowledge, but it'd be pretty awesome if I was." It struck me as odd that out of hundreds of patients she had a dream about me... and that I was pregnant, no less.

To make it a little more interesting a few hours after I went home I went to use the washroom, and I have some brown spotting. Coincidence? Most likely, especially if you consider how little sex we had this month. lol.

Oh well, if I'm pregnant - Fantastic. If it's AF... That's fine, because it would put me at a great point in my cycle to take the Clomid if I get it at my appointment in 5 days. If it's just random spotting... Well, I'm getting Clomid and likely Provera in 5 days anyhow, so it's all good. Haha.

Hormones...

I think the lack of ovulation and/or a period is really starting to cause a build up of access hormones in my system.... I suppose it doesn't help that I'm completely and utterly stressed out. The last couple days have been filled with seemingly endless highs and lows... One minute I'm happy go lucky, then next I want to rip someone's face off, then I'll want to cry about it, and the next thing you know I'm laughing at myself for being so crazy. I know that your hormones go ape-shit in pregnancy, and most people would say that I should "get used to it" since I'm TTC... But damn. I've been through pregnancy, and these mood swings are MUCH worse than any I've experienced before. I'm not sure if I can handle much more... and I sure as hell don't know how Chaz is handling it.

I went looking for Mucinex or Guaifenesin Tablets yesterday to figure out how much they cost, but it turns out Mucinex isn't available in Canada and they places around here have tried, unsuccessfully, for the last little while to get Guaifenesin Tablets in. So, I'm stuck either buying online (Which I am SUPER reluctant to do, considering people could easily tamper with it) or going with the Robitussin... I have found a type (Extra Strength Congestion) that has Guaifenesin as the only active ingredient, but I'm still hesitant about it. I'm going to have to do a little more research into it I think. Here's hoping I can find something, for cheap, that will work.

1 week and 4 days, and counting, until my OB appointment...